Monday, 16 February 2015

When will i quit?

Am i not tired, being under his order and Succum to his mood swings ?

*****  throwback sat...

I still remember back in 2013, when i started seeking help about my marriage. I sent emails and messages to a few councelling bodies, ustazs and ustazahs. The replied were merely frustrating.

Especially from one famous female professor. She frequently appeared on tv and had her own talkshow.

I told her about the problem i faced. About my husband being reluctant to visit my parents and all.

Her reply was: You have to be careful in choosing a husband. choose a person that perform solah. Repent to Allah and be patient.

I agree with her advice about me repent to Allah. Yeah but about choosing a husband was very confusing. Her answer made me even more confused. He prayed last time. I didnt know he was going to stop. I was expecting more. For a professor like her...

I stopped depending on people to tell me what to do. Coz it hurts.

This journey is tiring.

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